and the summer has just begun......:)

I love summer,i used to love memorial day. Today i had to scrape myself together and force myself to carry on the traditions that we have done in the past.I still feel sad about having an incomplete family but i also realise its not going to change and i still have four amazing kids at home that think im a great mom. So.......we opened the pool,invited the neighbors,cooked up some yummy food and we had a blast.
Steve and Zach are in fine form and starting on the dumb list early. They somehow convinced lavonna that they should have a sleep over,then ended up at our house,only to discover the little girls were having a sleepover.Undeterred they went to zonells who now has a house full of YM.I have no doubt that tomorrow will be our turn.
This last week was our 20th wedding anniversary.Im supposed to be sipping diet coke on a cruise ship right now :) the budget only allowed for a new sewing machine and a homemade dinner but at this point im just happy we are still in together and in love.
One of our neighbors had a heart attack and died this week...total shock, and reminder that life is short and there are no guarantees of tomorrows.

The boys are taking up golf so that dad can get some exercise and Michaela and i still do wii fitness.There was another death this week,one of the last of my favorite residents. Ron lived a long, full life of service and family and im pretty sure he was ok to go.He was always happy,full of mischief and was totally in love with his wonderful wife of almost 70 yrs.

So,our family will carry on with the traditions we have had,sadly without Jenny.She went up north to be a nanny and i doubt she will come back to st George.She seems angry(mostly at me) and discontent and i really hope she finds what makes her happy soon.Im glad she has my in laws who hopefully can help her get back into the church. She is working for a good family so im sure she will be ok. There are lots of things i wish i had done better but i cant turn back time.She used to think i was a great mom,now she wants no contact with us.As painful as it is,i realise she has to find out what she values in life.
So summer is here and there are so many things im excited for: our yearly trip to the Manti pageant,our annual cherry hill/lagoon trip,camping with the ward and lots of pool parties with my incredible neighbors.Mostly i love dinners outside with the family or sitting in the swing talking to the kids.Did i mention i love summer............